I love being a photographer. Creating a capturing the world through a lens is something I fell in love with a long time ago. Getting paid to do what I enjoy, even better. When you’re doing what you love you can look past the long hours, the nights at your computer, the travel, etc… You start out dreaming about the packaging you will create, your logo and business cards, the little shop you might end up having. Working from home is equally attractive, with leisurely mornings with flexibility throughout the day. The chance to travel is an adventure, and you sign up at every opportunity.
Then the work starts to pile up, you travel and miss out on time in the office and after an all nighter finishing up your new blog you’re exhausted.
I’ve been there.
I don’t want to write this to make it sound like I don’t enjoy what I do, because that’s not true. As I said I love being a photographer and am grateful to be able to have my own business. I have found, however, that working for yourself and running a small business is so much more than what I first envisioned. The thing about working for yourself is that it never ends. There is always more to do, things you could do better, and things you aren’t doing. When I first started I thought I would get to a point that felt like I arrived, had made it and could take a break. So far I’ve just kept working, and if you’re someone like me you have a hard time giving yourself any leeway as you try to do everything to perfection. It can be hard to say no, to prioritize, and to not do everything.
I’m not sure if I’m turning over a new leaf or just gaining perspective. I’m trying to bring more balance to my life. Planning ahead to have time off, be creative outside of the work I do for clients and make sure I do what I enjoy.